And when the battle was done I was promised my sun But with a thousand nights gone To any kingdom I run

I tried this new thing the last couple of days. At the time I figured that it would set an alarm to the rest of the world but instead, it reassured me of my deepest fears. I've had a knot in my throat ever since then. Tears are tasteless and my mind is over its capacity with the things I can't bring myself to say out-loud.
I have resorted to destroying a wall in my room. It's no longer white...now it's bleeding with the colors of my abandonment.