there was a time when not a single thing bothered me. commands barked by my mother didn't break the sound barrier so i never got to hear them. taunts from girls smaller than me in grade school made me glad i was one of the boys. i never cried. i never said it hurt. i never, not once, let any living thing get the best of me.
you see, after the age of six, i left behind any form of incompetence to hang along side the belt i swore would take me to a better place. that doesn't make much sense, does it? in other words, i tried to choke myself with a belt i found in my parents' bedroom floor. i wasn't trying to kill myself. i was just curious to see what would happen if i stopped breathing. i knew what death was but at the time i thought it was just something my parents made up in order to make me want to get there faster. i can't blame them.
things were fine then. it kinda seems like i had nothing going for me but i was rich when it came to motivation. "I'll show you!" i was like a damn record player. that's all i ever said to myself. that was my comeback to everything.
the highlight of my education was in sixth grade. man, i felt on top of the world. i was one of the smartest kids in class and i loved it. i had set my heart on YouSeeElAye and there was nothing that was going to stop me. but we all know how that turned out.
high school went by quick. and now I'm here.
trial and error; story of my life.
I have some things I need to work on. I'm not a negative person. I think I'm just realistic. I can cross the line though.
I'm a person of few words (hence the short autobiography)
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